Category Archives: My World

My writing and art collection relating to lifetime experiences.

My Dreams, My Journey

My Dreams, My Journey

“The Octopus,” 1912, Alvin Langdon Coburn. Image taken from a page of the 2011 Desk Calendar, courtesy of The Metropolitan Museum of Art Store

My dreams, my journey…traveling through life is quite an adventure.

Sometimes life can feel like a journey.  With no map to guide us, it is surprisingly easy to get off the beaten path, and end up heading in an entirely new direction.  I must admit that I have a terrible sense of direction…just ask anyone who knows me personally and they will confirm that to be true.  I couldn’t tell you whether I am heading east or west, north or south, to save my life!  Whenever I plan to travel to some place new, I make certain that I have a map, written directions, and GPS readily on hand to get me there.  When traveling along the road of life, however, there is no compass, there are no street signs, there may even be a few detours, which can be much harder to navigate.  So what is it that guides us?  How do we find our way?

“Make the most of yourself, for that is all there is of you.”  Ralph Waldo Emerson

For me, it seems I travel my life’s journey even in my sleep.  I have a recurring dream that crept into my slumber just recently.  I am in my car driving to work, motoring along on my usual route.  As I proceed,  I notice that the road is getting progressively narrow, and the smooth surface of the asphalt is getting rougher and rockier…before I know it the road is littered with stones; some as large as boulders!  At this point, my vehicle is now a bicycle which I am frantically pedaling for fear I will be late for work.  I am not alone on the road at this point as now there is a little girl, also on a bicycle, weaving back and forth along the path in front of me.  She gets so close sometimes that I think I’ll topple over her.  Finally I step off of my bike and wheel it along side of me, all the while the little girl laces her jagged string of distractions closer and tighter around me.  I keep trudging along for a while in this manner, trying to avoid her.  Suddenly the little girl disappears, trailing off onto some discreet trail. The rocky road ends  and before me is a huge majestic view of a never-ending valley.

That dream varies here and there whenever I dream it, but the feeling that I have when I awaken from it is always the same.  I have this overwhelming sense of lightness of being and an excitement that makes me want to jump out of bed and start afresh.  What lies in the hours ahead of me beckons me as if I am about to embark on a new journey….a wonderful adventure!  Certainly I have an idea of what the day before me holds, the things that make up my daily routine.  But like the little girl in my dream who keeps seemingly to get in the way of my travels, the challenges and surprises that will surely cause me to alter my normal route, often times are the very things that lead to the best destination for me.  The way is not always clear, the mode of transportation from one interruption to the next frustration may not always be ideal. One thing is for sure, holding on tightly to the reigns of what God has revealed to me and continually treading forward in that, I know that I will get to where I need to be each step of the way.

How about you? As you look back at the souvenirs of your life’s journey so far, remembering the paths that have led to where you are now…what is it that has brought you there; where will your journey take you?

Peace,

Felecia

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Who Is She?

Who Is She?

“Who Is She?, a photograph of my niece Leia Gabrielle

Who Is She? Do we really know ourselves as well as we think?

Who Is She?

Is she frail, vulnerable, quiet and shy?

Is she childlike, inquisitive, and always asking why?

Is she dark, aloof, and mysteriously unknown?

Is she confident enough to stand all on her own?

Is she full of life? Does she have vigor for it?

Will she embrace and use her talent, or simply ignore it?

Is she one who will strive for good and not fall?

No matter the cost; even if asked to give her all?

I wonder, who she is; given the chance to prove,

Will her inner love and compassion cause her to move?

To love others deeply; to give of herself from her heart,

May she steadily seek these qualities and may they never depart.

Felecia R. Weber, OntheWingofaDove.com

“I am living my life to the beat of a different drum, and I am making my own beautiful music along the way.”  Felecia R. Weber, OntheWingofaDove.com

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It’s All Right

It's All Right

“After the Ball,” (Detail), 1874, Alfred Stevens. Image from a page of the 2014 Desk Calendar, courtesy of The Metropolitan Museum of Art Store

It’s all right…when we feel vulnerable, when we are afraid or just unsure; that is when we can become the most secure.

A  mental image came to mind when I was singing praises during our worship time at a recent church service.  I can’t quite remember now what it was in the songs that made me think of it; perhaps I was just feeling a little misunderstood and insecure that morning.  We all have days and periods in our lives when we are just not at our best.  When those times come, I feel anything but “all right.”

My faith in God and my eternal salvation are the most important things in the world to me..for without that hope, that truth, I am nothing.  At the same time, I am in this world and I live my life uniquely.  I interpret the world through my own vision, and what I see is filtered through the eyes of the abiding love that God showers upon me.  Still, I don’t always make the right choices. I make mistakes everyday.  Sometimes I feel so lost and so not knowing what to do…so not “all right.”

Whenever I feel vulnerable and insecure, the same mental image plays over in my mind; as if I am watching a movie.  I am on a stage, like an actress playing the part of that moment in my life.  I tremble as I peer out into the audience, until my eyes search out the familiar faces of my family and friends clapping, cheering me on and mouthing the words,”You’re doing fine!” and “We love you!”  That same image played out in my mind on that Sunday morning, but the face that I saw in the audience was that of Jesus…and he said, “I love you no matter what.  I will never leave you, nor forsake you.  Abide in me and I will abide in you.  For I have already paid the price. Indeed, when I focus on these promises, it is then that I know, it’s all right.

“Here is what I am commanding you to do.  Be strong and brave.  Do not be terrified.  Do not lose hope.  I am the Lord your God.  I will be with you everywhere you go.” Joshua 1:9

Peace,

Felecia

 

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Where There is Honesty

Where there is Honesty

“Honesty,” photograph by Felecia R. Weber, OntheWingofaDove.com

Where there is honesty…there is freedom…where there is freedom…we flourish.

Where There is Honesty

Where there is honesty,

there is trust.

Where there is trust,

there is freedom.

Where there is freedom,

there is fulfillment.

Where there is fulfillment,

there is wholeness.

Where there is wholeness, Continue reading

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What’s in a word? – Tangerine

What's in a word? - Tangerine

“Tangerine”, Felecia R. Weber, OntheWingofaDove.com

What’s in a word? – Tangerine

Breakfast, refreshing, not an orange, squirt, luscious, zesty, fruit, round, vibrant, sweet, desire, inviting, thirst, quench, nourishment, skin, flesh, segments, liquid, juice…

By now you may have noted that I have a little bit of the “gift of gab“…well okay, a lot of that gift!  I truly do love words and how they can be written in such a way as to paint the most lovely of pictures, even though they are simply letters placed on a page, or a screen.  I also appreciate you, my readers, and I always enjoy hearing from you.  So, as homage to the wonderful world of words and to give you a chance to join in helping me to spread my gift, I have decided to begin a monthly series entitled “What’s in a word?”

Each month, I will choose a random word, anything that pops into my head at the time, or one that has been on my mind for a while.  Then I will proceed to list all of the words or phrases that I can think of to describe it.  This is actually an exercise that I employ when developing a poem or one of my essays.  My hope is that you will share your thoughts on the words that I offer to you as well…who knows, perhaps they will inspire your creative side.  You never know what you’ll find in a word!

Peace and love,

Felecia

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A Bit of Myself

A Bit of Myself

Study of a Rose blossom, photograph by Martin Watson

A Bit of Myself…sharing the secrets of my soul.

I must admit that I have had a bit of a difficult time getting my thoughts down on paper for this post.  I knew what I wanted to say, but I just couldn’t seem to formulate the words. Thinking back on things that’d read or seen that would perhaps inspire me, I came across this excerpt from the classic story “The Picture of Dorian Gray” by Oscar Wilde:

Basil Hallward:  “every portrait that is painted with feeling is a portrait of the artist, not the sitter.  The sitter is merely the accident, the occasion.  It is not he who is revealed by the painter; it is rather the painter who, on the colored canvas, reveals himself.  The reason I will not exhibit this picture is that I am afraid that I have shown in it the secret of my own soul.”

When I first read this passage, I must say that I had to reread it a couple of times and sort of catch my breath. Continue reading

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Awakening

Awakening

“Madame X (Madame Pierre Gautreau),” Detail, 1883-84, John Singer Sargent. Image from a page of the 2013 Desk Calendar, courtesy of the Metropolitan Museum of Art Store

Awakening…a discovery, starting anew, a time full of vision and hope.

Awakening

From behind the curtain,

With boldness and grace,

She glides onto the stage…

Awakening

“How Beautiful!” “Gorgeous!” “So elegant!”

The audience applauds her appearance.

“Is it me they speak of, and not someone else?”

Awakening

She opens her mouth; all eyes are upon her.

Her words soothe their ears like a song.

“What I have said, do they truly understand?”

Awakening

The last line is spoken; she begins to take a bow.

A tear forms in her eye.

“Is this all there is?  Is this the end of the story?”

Awakening

Life can seem so empty when we expect too much.

Many times things are not what they seem.

Keep searching though, do not give up hope…

Seek  the truth…for it is there your light shall beam…

Awakening

Felecia R. Weber, OntheWingofaDove.com

“And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall set you free.”  John 8:32

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And the Mirror Cracked

And the Mirror Cracked

A winter scape, photograph by Martin Watson

And the mirror cracked…and what was left for me to see?

Thinking back over the events of the year that has just passed, the first phrase that popped into my head was “and the mirror cracked.”  A strange saying yet not so far from the truth.  As with every new year, I’d entered into it full of hope and excited anticipation.  The days, the months, the seasons passed by so quickly.  It seemed as soon as I settled into one thing, something else had already climbed over the horizon, and stared me right in the face.  I know, I know, life is like that.  We’ve never been promised that it would be easy…I’ve never expected that.  Hmmm, now there’s a word, expectations…the real focus of my thoughts.

With a new year ahead of me, I am about to write a new chapter in my life’s journal.   Continue reading

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